I scream out loud as no one would heard...
I cried out loud as no one can see,
I raised out my hand as I desperate for a hand that can pull me back,
I hid myself from the world as no one would noticed,
I drown myself in the darkness as no one care,
I run away from realistic as I should not be in this world at the first place,
I forbid myself from having hope as there are no dream for me,
I seal away my feeling as I am not allowed to have them,
I hate myself from the bottom of my heart as no one could ever love me...
My existence is meaningless,
Is a mistake that brought to this world,
Is a sin,
Is a curse for people like me,
My existence is nothing but punishment,
For me to suffer from pain,
For me to not love nor hate,
Nor that i can beloved by others,
My existence is invisible,
No one can see me,
Nor they can feel me,
No one care,
My existence is nothing but a nuisance,
A curse,
A sin,
A punishment,
A devil come upon hell,
That only bring hatred by everyone,
A unforgivable soul,
An unwanted child,
Even I long for love, forgiveness, warmness...
I can never beloved by anyone neither that i can ever love someone.
